Death by Train

Have you ever been hit by a train?
because I have
except the train was in the form of words aligned on a page
spoken by someone who has suffered the same fate
---death by train.
These words have a way of crushing your inner being
like a car mangled at the scene of a horrific crash
and you are left with the remains
of who you used to be
and where it met who you are.
I have been told I am a beautiful poet
but my poetry isn't as beautiful as people think
because it rips me to shreds and leaves me
exposed like a baby just born, a new life
just beginning.
I have made the mistake of falling in love with words
and often times this love leaves me empty
because the words never change
but I am changed because of them
---being a poet is a curse, not a blessing.
Please don't fall in love with my words
because it will leave you empty too,
forever a changed person
dead to your old self
cause of death: death by train.