Crazy

26 letters

but i can't find a word to describe me better

than the word crazy,

you see, i'm lazy

i want it all but i have none

i grab the gun

i paint the walls with my brain

i watch my guts wash down the drain 

no god complex,

i'm breaking necks
fuck time, i'll break the hands off of the clock
i'm making sounds but i can't talk
i look stupid
but it's not a fact until i prove it
and i will
because i'm poppin' pills
for my ADD
add that up and you'll agree
this is more than a mental breakdown
i'm in water 10 ft deep and i still can't fucking drown
and it's not that i want to die, it's just
well. either way i'm going to self-combust
it is inevitable
i know it is because my sources are credible
i can site them in the correct format, if you please
but please, somebody...realize i'm not at ease
and i never have been
i have never been comfortable in my own skin
so i began to slice it open
in the hopes that in the end,
i'd find who i really am
but damn,
i drove all this way to end up at a dead end
my sense of direction tends
to be a little crooked at best,
which sucks because i'm on an eternal quest
to find happiness
and all that's happening is,
i'm going farther and farther in the wrong direction
it all began with the injection
of longing into my bloodstream
and i screamed, but this is not a dream
i repeat, this is not a dream
i'm crazy