i was born right in the doorway

this is the first day of my life
taken by the force of a knife
thanks dad, for all this strife
thanks for beating your ex-wife
you broke me into a million pieces
the bullshit never ceases
to amaze me, jesus
with every gash, it all releases
the amount of scars increases
my self-control decreases
look at this shit i'm stuck in now
i cannot figure out how
i refuse to bow
i refuse to take your solemn vow
the time has come to disallow
i'm not the same kid i used to be
fuck you, i've been set free
got my wings when i hung from that tree
a noose fit just to me
locked the box, threw away the key
you never heard my begging plea
too late to save the day
my world is painted gray
i've been fucking led astray
too far gone, too late to pray
religion can't take this shit away
i gotta own up to my mistakes
90 miles an hour, i don't have brakes
you don't get a double take
so high my hands are starting to shake
love your kids for god's sake
or look where they'll end up
another day, another cup
shit's filled up
everything stops, it's abrupt
then you see how bad you're fucked
my brain is leaking out of my ears
wisdom far beyond my years
i am composed of blood and gears
built by fighting engineers
who don't want me anymore
pick myself up off the floor
the product of a lonely whore
and the lonely man she fell for
he took his shit and walked out the door
how's that for a blowout score
this is not what i asked for
i still regret that night
nothing is alright
i am never in the right
this is my last flight
i cannot stand another night
i cannot bear another fight
this is the first day of my life